Walk

A bike ride on a crisp fall day has a way of making thngs feel good.

A bike ride is such a cathartic experience, I find i spend a lot of time thinking about what is happening in my life. The difference is I don't get into the details, instead, I find myself looking at a thought or idea from an overall perspective. Today I found myself thinking about where i was going, in a lot of ways I feel like I've been born agian, not in a religous sense, rather in a sense of who I am at my core. A song by the Foo Fighters titled Walk has been in my head a lot thanks to my Ipod and I think it really somes up how I am feeling about now:
A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger
Little conquerors

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind
Set me free again
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/foo-fighters-walk-lyrics.html ]
To keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to climb another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna leave
I never say goodbye
Forever, whenever, forever, whenever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Given my current situation I find a lot of solace in these words. I don't know what my future holds, and for the first time in a very long time, I am not particularly concerned by this. I want to enjoy each day for today and the adventures and experiences presented to me.If your feeling like me, then I know you can grasp what I'm saying, learning to walk again is kind of scary, but it is also very exciting.  "Where do I begin"  is on my mind, to start, I am working to restore my home. I mean this figuratively and literally.                                           

I decided white would be best in a small kitchen to give more light and make it feel not so small.
The master bed and bath also received some love. I repaired the damaged wall in the bath which in turn, got rid of the lingering "cat pee" smell. I found some "oops" paint at home depot for $7.00 and gave the walls in the bath and hall a new color. I like the sandstone, It complements the bedroom color well.

 So that is what I have been up to. Stay tuned as I take more baby steps in my road to recovery.  Peace and love my friends, peace and love............